Thursday, October 2, 2008

On a second thought,

Currently Listening to : Whatever You Like - T.I
Currently Feeling : Heavy Hearted (!)

I would just like to point something out.
For those of you people out there who find that I should be treated differently just because I have a Malay boyfriend, I only have one thing to say :

Go fuck yourself.

Don't deny it, you know there are many of you who feel that way.
Grow up lah, how immature are you?
Please, accept the fact that we live in a multi-racial country.
My boyfriend is Malay. DEAL WITH IT.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Cool isn't a one way street.

Currently Listening to : Paper Planes - M.I.A
Currently Feeling : Raya-ish?

I've spent so much time thinking about all the answers to the problem, that I forget what the problem actually was.
- Elizabethtown





I was reminiscing a few days ago, when I was looking through some photo albums that I kept by my bedside. They were dusty and all, but still, the images never faded. There were pictures of myself when I was just beginning to make my first few footsteps and even pictures of me in primary school. Ahh, those were the days. I can remember only a tad bit of those times. Most of them were pretty fun and definitely memorable (:

I remember my first day of primary school in Std. 1. My mum was registering me in and she was quite busy so she told me to stay put near the playground in the school. I remember watching this cute little Malay guy named Irfan climb the monkey bars with such ease that I got jealous. Plus, I noticed that he was really cute. My first school-girl crush :D He was in the same class as I was, 1 Dinamik. Little did I know that my classmates then were going to be my best friends throughout primary school, all the way to Std 6.

I remember a girl who always made my primary school life miserable. She always got her way in things and always knew how to manipulate everyone. She got everyone not to talk to me whenever she felt like it. And after awhile, she would start talking to me again, just because she felt like it. I always went home crying to my mum every time she started ignoring me again. This went on all through Std 1 till Std 4.

Fast forwarding two years, I remember a new girl coming in to our class, 3 Efisyen. I thought she looked much older than all of us. I had the empty seat next to me, so I was her first friend in that school. Whenever the girl mentioned above decided to ignore me again, this new girl was the only one that I could talk to. She didn't care about what others thought of her, she was just being a true friend to me. But I never really appreciated that.
I remember taking advantage of her whenever I was in need. I remember she would always, always be there for me. I remember saying bad stuff about her behind her back whenever I was with the "in" crowd again with the girl who controlled everyone.

In Std 4, I remember a new guy coming to our class. I was stricken by his looks the moment I saw him. We used to talk on the phone for hours even though we were only 10 years old. When he told me that he likes me after a few months, I panicked and didn't respond. Later after that, he decided to forget about me and went on to liking other girls instead. But I had liked this guy all the way to Std 6 but I never had the guts to tell him.

I remember we used to keep "diaries". Writing about our daily lives in log books then exchanging it with our friends to read. We used to share "diaries" too. These were the ones the boys were itching to get their hands on, so they could spread all our secrets. I remember that the guys used to have "diaries" too :D

I remember the first few of us who had our coming-of-age and how scared we were about having periods. I remember us getting excited about the guys whose voices just broken and started getting taller and better looking. I remember those guys who "matured" mentally earlier than all of us, talking about sex all the time, making the rest of us disgusted. I remember gambling in class, playing UNO and batu seremban. I remember the first couple in school. Everyone thought they were going to get married :) I remember the unwritten rule between all of us that girls and guys are not allowed to touch each other. We were like viruses to one another. I remember "the love board", a piece of wood that everyone wrote their crushes on. I remember playing police and thief. I remember loving and hating primary school :D

Recently, I met my ex-crush, the one from Std 4- Std 6. He still had that walk where he looked like he was in a rush to go somewhere. He still pushes his hair back without realizing it. He still had that cheeky smile on his face that can never seem to be erased. All this just reminded me of how much I used to like him, and how sure I was that I was going to spend the rest of my life with him back then. HAHA.
I also met the girl that I never appreciated properly. She is so mature now, so secure about herself. She's the kind of girl that knows what she wants and is proud of herself. She's an independent woman with nothing to fear. I'm so jealous of who she has grown to become. I miss her so much. D, you know who you are

So yeah, that was pretty much a summary of my pathetic primary school life. I can't remember every bit of it, but the memory is so precious to me. I loved everyone in primary school. Some may somehow find a reason to still dislike me after so many years. I know I was not a very nice person or a true friend to many back then, but I've changed now. I mean, c'mon, it was primary school. I still do apologize to everyone of course, especially D.

Getting back to the present ;
Shoutout to Justina, sorry for making you wait for this post for so long :D
Good luck to all PMR candidates. PMR is kacang puteh compared to Form Four, okay!
And of course,

Selamat Hari Raya!

to everyone, Muslim or not ;)

Btw, I changed my Blogskin to something else if you haven't already noticed. It's just as simple as the previous one, only different. My profile, links and pretty much everything has been edited so do leave a comment at my tagboard, it's really stagnant! I also did Sam's blog, my sister, so go check it out. She's linked :D

Okay, I really have to try and get some sleep now. It's 6 am and I have a full day out planned tomorrow. This "insomnia" has got to stop. Exams are near and I need my rest! -.-
So, until next time!

Pictures :
This one is quite irrelevant. HAHA.

Benedict, Sue Aun, Deborah, Kartikeyan

Benedict, such a cutie :D

Kok Weng. Nerd then, hottie now.

Sue Aun & Debbie.

Kin Sun standing, Quan Yan who hardly ever seems to smile and half of Andrew

Sue Siang (not my age!), Ben, Chee Fai and Kieran


Sebastian, Sue Aun, Faiz and Sulaiman

Sheeesh I was such a nerd, LOL :D

Sebby & Debbie. AWWWW ;)

LeeYee, Denise, Michelle, Jocelyn, Shikin. BFFs? Not quite.

And of course there were much more of us, I just can't find their pictures. Sorry!

Random Note : I think the contestants in Amazing Race Asia 3 are seriously jakoon ;)

Toodles,
denise :D

Monday, September 22, 2008

I rock so hard, you roll :p

Currently Listening to : Skyway Avenue - We The Kings
Currently Feeling : Lethargic

At some point, you have to make a decision.
Boundaries,
don't keep
other people out,
they fence you in.

Life is messy, that's how we're made.

So, you can waste your lives drawing lines,

or you can live your life crossing them.

- Grey's Anatomy

Before I start, I would just loooove to emphasize on how much I HATE sitting in a bus when there's no air-conditioner. Especially in the mornings when I've already combed my hair nicely in such a way that it'll keep the teachers quiet. But noooo, there are just some people who have to open the damn windows like there's no fucking tomorrow and let all the damp cold wind blow at our faces. NO, it's not comforting, its dirty, cold, smelly and it screws my hair up! I'm sorry but I've just got to let this out.

& now since's that's done,
Dinner with Aqil and my family was okay. No, actually it was perfect :D
My family loves him, as he was polite and had that perfect-kind-of-boyf attitude that I've never seen before. We watched the Liverpool vs Stoke City match in the house and my grandfather took him to the LRT Station to go home at about 11 plus. Everything was fine ;)

Ohhh btww the Chelsea vs Man Utd match was worth watching :D

And to sign off, Kylie's tag :

State 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.

1. I'm a huge fan of football. I play sometimes, but I watch more often. And I looooove Chelsea :D
2. I may/may not have insomnia.
3. I can't speak Chinese to save my ass but I can understand it. Especially when my family kutuks me depan-depan. HAHA.
4. I like using the internet in the dark. LOL.
5. Majority of my closer friends are Malays and I'm not ashamed to admit that.
6. I'm interested in politics.
7. I love pigging out in front of the TV.
8. My camera was stolen during Summer Splash 08 and I want it back :(
9. I want to travel the world, take pictures of cultures in different countries like India, China, Thailand, Africa and so on.
10. I want to help stop global warming.
11. I have eczema. Look it up.
12. I cry easily, even the soppiest commercials can make me tear.
13. I'm afraid of fire.
14. I used to take ballet for about 5 years but I couldn't stand it so I dropped it.
15. I like Malay guys but I can't stand Mat Rempits xD

And I tag,
No one :)
Coz I know people dislike doing tags nowadays. HAHA.

Adieu.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

hold on to your words coz talk is cheap

Currently Listening To : Change - Taylor Swift
Currently Feeling : Very Hungry!


"The only logical reason that people talk about you
behind your back is because you're already ahead of them. "

Hey everyone. I'm sorry for not blogging for such a long time. Everyday I'm thinking, I should blog today but I just never got around to doing so. But anyway, here I am :D

Anyhoo, nothing much has happened these past 2 weeks. I went out with Aqil again, I studied in school like normal and just lived my life like every other teenager. I come online for about 4 hours a day, bang on my piano for about an hour or so, eat in front of the television while watching movie after movie, attempt to work out on the treadmill thingy, sing loudly on the shower and yeah. Basically, every day's the same.

I haven't been out at all! I want, no wait, scratch that. I NEED to go shopping. I'm so deprived of window shopping or splurging all my money on something that I don't need or that will be gathering dust in my closet. It's been 4 to 5 months since I bought something other than groceries for my mum. And since I've been complaining non-stop to Aqil, he promised he'll take me raya shopping this Saturday. Which is tmrw. YAAAAY! Hahaha :p He's the sweetest thing ever, always working both ways just to make me happy.

I'm also currently so addicted to The Academy Is... and We The Kings. They're brit pop bands and they just make awesome music. Check out their videos on YouTube or ask me for their best songs :p

And even though its the puasa month, I'm doing everything but puasa. HAHA. In fact, I've been pigging out more than ever. Breakfast, lunch, tea, dinner, supper and 3am snacks. Ice cream and chocolate cake, pasta, instant noodles, more ice cream, hot milo with Hup Seng crackers, mooncakes, chicken pies, char siew paus, chocolate and pretty much everything that's in my kitchen. And the bazaar Ramadhan is not helping either. I go down at least twice a week with my sister and we always come back with our hands full of plastic bags with kuihs in them. I'm getting fatter when I'm trying to slim down more :(

What's worse is tomorrow, I'm bringing Si Boyfriend to my aunt's house to buka puasa with my family. And he's going to get to see me gobble down all the yummy food my aunt never fails to prepare. Can't wait for that, eh -.- It's going to be awkward seeing him sitting at the dining table with Chinese people all around him eating food he probably hasn't seen in his life. But I'm sure it'll be fun. I hope. Haha.

And I've finally completed my zoo. Haha, no, I'm just kidding. What I mean is, in addition to my 4 year old dog which still looks like a puppy, I recently adopted a cat named Monkey and my sister bought a hamster named Sniffles. SUPER DUPER CUTE! Haha. And they all get along pretty well. At least they don't attempt to eat each other. I'll upload pictures of them soon, I promise.

And it's our one monthiversary whatever tomorrow! I'm so excited :p
Loads of stuff happening tmrw. HAHA.

Random Note : I MISS TAKING SHIT LOADS OF LAME SYOK SENDIRI PICTURES OF MYSELF! I want my camera back :(


xoxo,
denise(:

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Make up your mind la!

Currently Listening to : Check Yes Juliet - We The Kings
Currently Feeling : Pissed Off.

SERIOUSLY, IGNORE THE HUGE JUGS AND FAT ARMS :D

Okay, so I finally got a chance to spend the whole day with Aqil and our friends. It was a lot of fun but that's not what I wanted to blog about today.

On the day I went out to meet Aqil, my dad insisted that he took me to KLCC and meet my boyfriend. And YES my parents finally agreed that I was old enough to have a steady boyfriend, as long as studies are first and we don't go over the line. And by that they meant sex. HAHA :)

But anywayyy, all I really cared about was thier approval of Aqil, and since my dad didn't complain much after meeting him, other than the fact that Aqil was Malay, I assumed he was okay with me dating Aqil. Now all was left was for my mum to meet him and for me to get her approval. In fact, I have no idea why I want their approval, I guess it just helps me sleep better at night.

So, from the day I told my parents about Aqil until the day my mum finally gets to meet him, this is what happens. She threatens me. How? Like for example, that night when I was on the phone with Aqil at about 1am plus, when it was a freaking weekend and the whole damn house was awake, she said that if Aqil continues calling at night like this, she'll get the wrong impression of him and I can forget about seeing him. I was seriously WTF-ed at that time.

Again, just now, (its5.30amnowI'llexplainlater) I was super savers-ing with Aqil when she walking in on us and said, "Denise, what did I say about talking on the phone in the middle of the night? Give me your phone now." So I had to hang up, and turn off my phone and give it to her. It's okay, I understand, it WAS my fault, after all. But the thing I can't stand most was that later, in her room, she told my sister the same thing.

"If Aqil continues calling in the middle of the night, I'm going to get the wrong impression of him" WTFFF I'm so phucking shit pissed off about this man.

Why? Look, if she really sincerely wants to give us her approval, then okay. But if she keeps saying stuff like that, it only seems like its an obligation on my part for her to give us her approval. I don't know if that makes sense but what I'm trying to say in simple words is, if she wants to like him, then like him. If she doesn't want to, then just say it to my face. I'm not rolling on the floor crying my eyes out for her approval, I just would appreciate it if I could get it. I don't understand why she has to give me such a hard time when all I want to do is just have some fun with a guy that I really really like.

Ohh and btw, about the part where I explain why it's 5.30am, I just had my braces done. My dentist changed the wires and they effing hurt like shit right now. I can't sleep at all plus the fact that Aqil is most probably freaking out as to why my phone's turned off without explanation :D

Forgetting everything, Aqil and I made plans to study at the National Library next weekend so I can pull up my grades. My mum said if I'm failing this year-end exams, she's taking away my phone and modem. No way that's happening man, I'll go crazy. So yeah, Aqil's offered to help me study coz did I mention that HE'S A FREAKING GENIUSSS?? He's got like almost straight A's for his mid-term exam. Shit you, Aqil. HAHAHAHA.

Ohhh and raya's coming up, he invited me to his house to meet his parents. HAHAHA takot oh ;D

Monday, September 1, 2008

Please,

All I ask is that you guys don't judge me after reading the previous post.
I can't take anymore suffering.

Don't kill me xD

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http://yourpurepoison.blogspot.com/

thanks! :)
love you guys.